I was born in '73 but
I don't like to stress my life in childhood
At thirteen I had hardly the life you want but
At forty-nine I was the one we all looked up to
Some people know what it means to have a great time but
I know awareness
Some people know how great it feels to be on top but
I know they're not laughing to themselves now
I am jealous of those who make fun of me
I am intimidated by the power they portray but yet
I do not envy their lifestyles one bit
I have know what it is like to be alone but
I have refused to let it stay that way
At twenty I was a complete unknown
At thirty-eight they could not find me enough
At forty-nine I was giving my acceptance speech
I drank from the remains of those
Who knew not of my intentions
I would never let it be known
Who was being used
I earned my respect by respecting the respectable ones
I lied every once in a while
When the truth could have hurt all of us
Most people, thank God, never knew the difference
I have slept at times but
I am always awake
To the life and times of my truest of friends
I am not the type to hurt my truest of friends but
I am not sure why someone would do that anyway
How could someone do that to a friend?
But there was still that other type
The type that truly hated me
Who wanted to destroy me
Whose talk was more than hype
These are the ones I feared the most
They have the power to reach their goals
They will...
They will stop at nothing to wreck my life
In 2011 They tried to tell me I was done
I could not tell you where they were coming from
Nor could I be phased by this at all
In 2010 I was playing drums in a band
In 2012 I was having my arms amputated
I worked to get the pieces to fit
At forty-nine I was giving my acceptance speech
I wallowed in this founded fame
I never thought I was immortal
Nor did I think I would die a normal death
But if today I live with artificial limbs
I can say I've never been permanently hurt
Who knows...
Who will try to hurt me again
I know...
I will be okay
I know...
I will be all right
©1991, 2000 Jeff Yutzler